After several years of a toxic work environment, the death of my sister, grandmother and mother in a 4 year span of time, my body was overloaded by stress and I began to have difficulty swallowing. The difficulty turned in to inability to swallow and for more than a year I went through a series of medical procedures and none were successful in fixing the problem. I was finally diagnosed with the disorder Achalasia. It quickly progressed to the point that I could not take in anything except cranberry juice and Ensure. There were days when I would walk down the hallways at work feeling as if I would collapse because I was so weak. I was desperate for help. I tried acupuncture and even checked myself into a holistic wellness program for eleven days. All of it was too little, too late. I had internalized all of the grief and trauma and it had taken its toll.