After several years of a toxic work environment, the death of my sister, grandmother and mother, my body became overwhelmed and I began to have difficulty swallowing. I was diagnosed with the disorder, Achalasia. It quickly progressed to the point that I could not take in anything except cranberry juice and Ensure. There were days when I would walk down the hallways at work feeling as if I would collapse because I was so weak. I was desperate for help. I tried acupuncture and even checked myself into a holistic wellness program for eleven days. All of it was too little, too late. I had internalized all of the grief and trauma and it had taken its toll.